Saturday, August 15, 2009

When I'm not funny no more..

Hai everyone..First of all forgive me for my bilingual usage for this entry..To some who still following my blog, maybe it is kind of a surprise to see why I am suddenly writing another entry for which it usually take months for me to do it. I guess there are some stuff that really buggin' me recently. Some may say I can't complain about it, but I'm kind of a person who really can't let go things that easy unless I got the whole idea why those things happened to me. On top of that, as you can bet, I really don't have no one to really open up or talk about it.

Well I am not ashamed to tell you guys out there that I cried so hard last night. It is not because I was so sad about what happened, it is more like a channel for me to relief emotional pains that I have been hold inside. What happened was that there are some "things" going on the other night on Facebook. I can't believe my eyes that I actually read it. I feel humiliated since. It ain't something big however for me it is beyond my common expectation. So I just say what I got to say and log off immediately. I think it is kinda okay-ish if someone you really do not know did that but in my issue it isn't. I thought I was being funny but it seems not. Personally, I always do not care what have been said to me-whether it is harsh or related to my own issues-cos I always know, deep inside my heart it was all a joke-it is always like that. Last night was a different story. The table is truly turned. Completely. Being honest here, I am broken hearted. I don't know if I'm too sensitive or being a jerk who cannot take jokes, I'm telling you that I am really feeling it.


Now, I don't feel like login to Facebook no more. I even don't have the feeling to go chatting online through MSN. I wanna do nothing. Nothing else.

I'm outta here..



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